This is the continuation of last week's eight page entry: When we finally arrived back at Liz and Lacey's, I told Liz and Tara how I felt. They were nice about and guess what! I started crying! I was shocked. It was weird and I felt really dumb to be sitting there crying in front of them.
I know Liz didn't understand what was wrong. I mean, I told her, but she she just isn't the type to cry over a guy. Tara is so she could relate. I still feel stupid about it.
Sunday was boring. We didn't do anything except watch television. Now for today. Oh. Where do I start? It was completely depressing. I wish that I could rewind my life back to friday or saterday. Then I would most definately try my hardest to change that party.
So at school, I walked in the door and he was standing there. (Curt.) He had no expression on his face. It was awful. I tried to just ignore him, but when it was second period -- English -- and Liz and I had come back in the building, Curt and Mikey were in the hall and he just walked around me like I was the plague. So I said, "Curt, are you mad at me?"
His answer was dripping with sarcasm. "No. Why would I be mad at you?"
That got me mad so I left. We ignored each other for the rest of the day. I still don't have any idea why he was so angry with me. I don't know what I did and I'm kindof worried. I'm trying not to think about it. Maybe he thinks I'm really moody. I don't have any idea. I guess I'll just have to wait until tomorrow to find out. Maybe it just wasn't meant to be, you know.
I tried to be cautious. I tried not to get involved. I tried not to let my feelings for him get out of hand and I guess I didn't succeed because I really like this guy!
I gotta sleep now! Love ya much!
P.S. I need help!