This is the continuation of last week's eight page entry: When we finally arrived back at Liz and Lacey's, I told Liz and Tara how I felt.  They were nice about and guess what!  I started crying!  I was shocked.  It was weird and I felt really dumb to be sitting there crying in front of them.

I know Liz didn't understand what was wrong.  I mean, I told her, but she she just isn't the type to cry over a guy.  Tara is so she could relate.  I still feel stupid about it.

Sunday was boring.  We didn't do anything except watch television.  Now for today.  Oh.  Where do I start?  It was completely depressing.  I wish that I could rewind my life back to friday or saterday.  Then I would most definately try my hardest to change that party.

So at school, I walked in the door and he was standing there.  (Curt.)  He had no expression on his face.  It was awful.  I tried to just ignore him, but when it was second period -- English -- and Liz and I had come back in the building, Curt and Mikey were in the hall and he just walked around me like I was the plague.  So I said, "Curt, are you mad at me?"

His answer was dripping with sarcasm.  "No. Why would I be mad at you?"

That got me mad so I left.  We ignored each other for the rest of the day.  I still don't have any idea why he was so angry with me.  I don't know what I did and I'm kindof worried.  I'm trying not to think about it.  Maybe he thinks I'm really moody.  I don't have any idea.  I guess I'll just have to wait until tomorrow to find out.  Maybe it just wasn't meant to be, you know.

I tried to be cautious.  I tried not to get involved.  I tried not to let my feelings for him get out of hand and I guess I didn't succeed because I really like this guy!

I gotta sleep now!  Love ya much!

P.S. I need help!