Taku, a character in Freefall, doesn't like to use his inhaler. The reason he doesn't like to use it (and the reason he has it at all) is because I don't like to use one of my inhalers. It isn't out of stubbornness for the sake of it, I don't think. The way my hands shake and the powerful drowsiness that sometimes comes over me right after I use it (even with a spacer) are really off-putting side effects.

Most of the time, I technically don't need it. But there are times--like when I get a cold--that it is essential. I was reminded of this fact yesterday when I went to the doctor to find out why I wasn't responding to any brand of cough medicine, why I was getting worse and worse every day instead of better. She asked, "Are you using your inhalers?"

*forehead slap*

No. No, I wasn't. I haven't used them for months because I felt fine. And, I don't know, somehow I forgot that I need them. How that happened when I have them on my bathroom counter all the time to remind me, I don't know. But I need to remember this in the future. 


Okay. I hope this will help. Because I am so exhausted and worn down and I don't want to have another week like this one if I can help it. *Sigh*