Note: I wrote this only three days ago. Every once in awhile something comes out in this revision that makes me go, Huh. This is one of those things. It's simple and obvious, but I somehow never saw it in quite that way before. The last line sums up Seth's main struggle. I think. Even if these particular lines don't end up staying in the draft, they still showed me something.

No one was saying much about our gig last week or my sloppy, embarrassing part in it. But I imagine that if they had been talking about it, they’d all be telling me to get over it and get back up there. The problem wasn’t just my one off show though; it was my off life. I couldn’t force myself to take the stage sober. I couldn't do anything important when I was sober. Without liquid courage I had no courage at all.